I wake up palpitating. Decisions, decisions. Funny, I don’t want to run away from this. I want to face it. But not like this. I want to accomplish something first. In saying that, I guess I’ve already decided which reality I want… well, at the moment at least. I just want to make sure that when I come back, I’d be at my best. I just want to find the ‘thing’ I lost along the way. Please, let me accomplish something first. If ever you retire from supporting me, then I’ll find a way. I just have to give this to myself first.
With that said, I guess we’re moving here. I mean, so far I’ve just been such a bum. Had done nothing yet. Earned nothing yet.
I was trying to relieve myself from the stress I got myself into. So what did I do so far? I read some Midori no Hibi manga and played Game Dev Story in my Mother’s Galaxy Tab. Pretty addicting. That game. Hahah. Bad move. Cause last night I was dreaming of having my hair colored green or blue, purple or red. Something extreme. I don’t know. Cause I identify with Midori? Is there a connection?
Anyway, the only thing that grounds me a bit is my time with Koishii. Makes me smile. Just the other night when we were having dinner in Jollibee, I was fluttering all over the place remembering our first date. This was four years ago and now there we were sitting on the right same spot having a bucket of Chickenjoys, enjoying our time together. ♥
It was marvelous. I remember being so in a hurry that day. He was sending me text messages saying, it’s okay if I can’t come as long as I’d be able to attend our Youth Fellowship that day. Still makes me smile. We won that date from a contest in our Youth Ministry, it was February – thus the activity. I was so hyped that day. Our co-winners at the other table kept asking us if it was okay to go. We couldn’t stop talking. And I couldn’t really eat at my normal ‘slow-as-it-is‘ phase cause he was right in front of me, staring. My cheeks burned. Heheh.
Haay Koishii. He never tires of encouraging and supporting me. ♥ I love you. :>
Anyway, I guess I’ll be off now. I’m gonna give my dog a bath, then me. And afterwards, we’ll see. Maybe I really would go out today and have my hair colored. Bye.
Oh, Joy and I am going to Prayer Mt. tomorrow. So hopefully, I’d be able to loosen up more and write something good and positive soon eh~? :)